What's Worth Getting is Worth Waiting For ...

Believe me, Its Worth the Wait!
(Indeed, Patience is a Virtue!)


It’s been awhile since I last posted a blog. Well, may be it’s because I wasn’t in the mood to compose blogs for the past few months. Blogging or composing my thoughts are things that I do when I am in the mood to release the extreme emotions that I have - - either when I feel like hell is just a step away from where I am standing or when it seems that the angels are singing for me out of glee…

My life has always been an open book. I know I am blessed but it doesn’t mean that I am spared from the trials and challenges of life. Well, I can say that the not so good things that happened in the past can also be considered as forms of blessings because it helped me become a better and stronger person. Also, the not so good events that I experienced in my life allowed wonderful blessings to enter my life that paved the way for me to make a difference in the lives of others.

Anyway, matters of the heart can make or break a person. In most cases, being broken hearted due to a failed relationship is usually the last straw that breaks a camel’s back. Some people are lucky enough to bounce back after being heartbroken and they turn out to be better and stronger people - - just like me!

When my X (who is happily married now) and I parted ways several years ago, I thought it was already end of the world. Literally, I grieved. I cried not just buckets of tears but drums of it. I never thought that the day would ever come that I will just laugh about it - - fortunately, the day came. It was a long process though - - 4 ½ years of grieving, imagine?! Yup, I tried to date eligible men along the way but it was always a failure. It already came to a point that finding somebody was next to miracle. But, I never stopped praying for the right man to come. I requested God to give me somebody who will fit on the checklist that I made. Well, after being heartbroken for a long period of time, I became more careful or should I say more Idealistic?

It came to a point that I already became impatient that the best man for me would still come. I have psyched-up myself that it’s better for me to be just a groovy old maid for life than giving myself a reason to be frustrated by waiting and waiting for nobody.

Truly, mysterious are the ways of the heart but stranger are the ways of God… During the time that I wasn’t expecting anymore, NEIL came unexpectedly. It was on the fateful day of July 09, 2008, Wednesday when a mutual friend of ours informed me that he would introduce me to his co-faculty. Of course, I was hesitant at first but I eventually gave in after praying for it. To make the long story short, NEIL and I clicked. For me, there was MAGIC since the first day we communicated (take note: usap palang huh, hindi pa kami nagkikita sa lagay na yan!) and for him, there was an instant CHEMISTRY that made both of us conclude that we are indeed soul mates. Now, the rest is history. We’ve been each other’s partners for 3 months only but it seems that we’ve known each other for such a long time already, isn’t it strange?

Whewwww, after 41/2 years of waiting, truly, an unanswered prayer! God is truly so strange. There are so many things in life that no matter how our hearts desire it but if it’s not according to God’s will, it will never happen. And there are so many things that we don’t really want to happen but if it’s according to God’s plan for our lives, it will still happen no matter how we stop it from happening - - what a strange and ironing life isn’t it?

It is so true that when God closes a window, He opens a door so that many more blessings can come in. Neil is one BIG blessing in my life. He has given me a new perspective about life. He has helped me to laugh when it was so hard for me to even just smile. His patience and generosity (not just materially) gives me no reason to feel insecure about myself, in fact, he has taught me to enjoy and love myself all the more.

Nobody knows what the future holds for us. But knowing that I prayed for this gives me so much peace that everything is in the hands of God and He is the one in full control of the situation.

Of course, I am looking forward to the day that I can tell the entire world that it feels so good to be your man’s ONLY love and he is my GREATEST love - - God-willing, may that man be NEIL already.

Now, I can say that everything that I’ve been through is all worth it. It may be a long journey but the trip is worth it. If I were to live my live all over again, I will still take the same route because it is where I met my GREATEST LOVE.

To NEIL, thank you so much. Life has been more exciting and beautiful because I am sharing it with you. I love you my Sweetie!

/~BIGs~\